ABOUT
The intention of my work is to wake up the part of your soul that you shut down as a kid.
That part of you that just wanted to love and be loved…
That part of you that felt free to express and play…
That part of you that was told was too much…
You were told...
You are too loud, so you stopped speaking up.
You were called too emotional, so you learned to hide and suppress your feelings.
You heart got broken, so you stopped loving so hard.
Your kindness was taken advantage of, so you stopped being so kind and caring so much…
All of this was done to protect yourself. But in protecting yourself, you also built walls against feeling love.
Now, you’re living a life missing the immense pleasure, joy, and inspiration that intimacy brings.
The longer you continue, the more you distance yourself from your soul—the part of you that’s crying out. The part you suppress but hear whispering when you’re tired, reminding you of what you’re missing. That voice isn’t your enemy; it’s your inner self, yearning to have its needs heard and met, longing to reconnect you with who you truly are—the child you once were
The child that you have been ignoring.
It doesn’t have to stay this way.
My work is about guiding you back to that heartfelt place within, helping you understand that what once felt like “too much” is actually the gateway to freedom, intimacy, and fulfillment.
Together, we’ll dissolve the barriers that keep you separated from your true nature, allowing you to experience life—mind, body, and spirit—fully awake, fully alive.
In doing so, you’ll rediscover the real, undomesticated version of yourself—the you that existed before fear, conditioning, and society’s expectations ever told you to be smaller than you are."
What is it like to work with me?
The following is an intimate glimpse into one woman’s journey working with Rod. It is a story of courage, self-discovery, and transformation.
Every client’s experience is uniquely their own, with sessions tailored to their intentions, desires, and personal boundaries. Results naturally differ for each person, reflecting the individuality of their path.
This client has shown remarkable strength in opening herself to this work and allowing her story to be shared. Her willingness to acknowledge her role in the challenges she faces and her commitment to embracing change have been the foundation of her growth.
In a short time, she has already come so far, reconnecting with her body and exploring parts of herself that had previously been shut down based off her childhood and previous intimate experiences.
As she continues to nurture this relationship with herself, she lays the groundwork for a stronger, more fulfilling connection with her husband, her children, and her own sense of self.
Journal Entry 1: Awakening to Receiving
I didn’t know what to expect when I booked my first session. All I knew was that something needed to change. I had spent years living in my masculine energy—planning, organizing, controlling—and it was exhausting.
Then I discovered my husband had been going to "happy ending" massages, and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
"Was I not enough"?
Or was it something else?
That’s when I found Rod. My mentor had worked with him and spoke so highly of his work. I felt nervous but ready for something new, so I made the three-hour drive, unsure of what I was stepping into.
When I arrived, I hesitated at the door. The sun was shining brightly outside, I couldn’t see anything until I stepped in. It felt intentional, almost like a symbolic crossing—not just into the room, but into something deeper within myself.
Rod greeted me warmly, and as my eyes adjusted to the soft, ambient light, the room came into view.
It was warm and inviting, with an almost sacred quality. Flickering candles cast gentle shadows on walls covered in rich red velvet, accented by splashes of gold that caught the light.
The air carried the grounding scent of incense, filling the space with a calming presence. In the center stood a massage table, surrounded by thoughtful details—textures, colors, and elements that made the room feel alive yet serene. It was unlike anything I’d ever experienced.
It felt like stepping into a portal, a space outside of time, where everything that was about to unfold felt easy, natural, and comfortable.
I didn’t expect to cry, but I did.
Something about the space he held—so calm, so steady—I wasn't being judged and felt safe enough to let go.
When it was time for the bodywork, I felt vulnerable but strangely calm.
He left the room while I undressed down to my underwear, I hopped on the table and ready to let myself feel. He had given me many tips on how to help me do this and before leaving the room he helped me quieten my thoughts and be present in my body.
The experience was unlike anything I had ever known. For the first time, I felt masculine energy in a way that wasn’t intimidating or overpowering.
It was giving, supportive, grounding and so present. It felt like energetically we had made love, even though he had barely even touched me outside of my underwear. Not that I would ever do it, but for the first time in my life my whole body wanted to pull a man (him) on top of me.
I didn’t realize how much I had been resisting the masculine—how much I had been resisting myself from receiving—until that moment.
After the session, I had a long drive home to process everything. By the next morning, I felt... ALIVE.
I texted Rod:
"I’ve never felt masculine energy like that before. Ever. And I loved it. I think I’ve been denying myself that for years. It shifted something in me—made me see the masculine as safe, as giving. I feel light, turned on, and open in a way I’ve never felt before."
That night, I felt a new closeness with my husband. He noticed it, too. He asked,
“What the hell is this and can he teach me to do it?
It wasn’t just the touch; it was the way I was seeing and experiencing my husband, something had shifted —I was more open, with less resistance.
I started using sage like Rod showed me, letting the scent pull me out of my racing thoughts and into my body. I began noticing pleasure in the little things—like eating food was more enjoyable, the way I breathed, the way I existed.
I had spent so long ignoring pleasure, pushing it aside, and now it felt like a door had opened.
This wasn’t just a session. It was an awakening.
In the following days 4 people out of the blue told me that they had been having dreams of me and all these amazing opportunities seem to be opening up.
My husband has been telling everyone that I am learning to receive... It's embarrassing, what is he telling them?
And it is also endearing.
I can see how much he actually does love me. He is proud of me and wants to show me off.
By the time I booked my second session, things had already started shifting. My husband and I were closer than we’d been in years. We were having more sex—better sex—and I felt more connected to my body than I had in ages.
But I still felt like there was more to uncover, more to release.
Journal Entry 2: The Healing Breath of Desire
So here I am two weeks later driving another 3 hours...
What am I travelling all this way for?
All the judgements are coming today.
I am unsure of it all. How can his work really make that much of a difference?
I arrive, he welcomes me in again. Once again we sit on the couch and talk. I had been feeling grief the last couple days. Grief around my breasts.
Years ago I got breast implants . At the time, they felt like a choice that fit the version of me I was then.
But as I became more conscious of my health, I decided to have them removed. It was an easy decision on the surface, they no longer aligned with who I was or what I believed in. I thought I had moved on.
But now, out of nowhere, I found myself missing them
the way they looked.
The way they felt.
It caught me off guard, this longing for something I thought I had left behind so easily.
He listened and spoke into the past version of me—the one who had chosen the implants in the first place. He explained that I had never allowed myself to grieve that version of myself or the parts of me that had changed since then. I had simply made the decision, removed them, and moved forward. But there was still a part of me that had liked how they made me feel, a part I hadn’t given space to grieve.
His words opened something in me. For the first time, I felt permission to acknowledge that part of myself, to honor her instead of dismissing her. I realized that I didn’t have to regret my past choices to feel aligned with who I am now.
It felt like a softening—a step toward integrating pieces of myself I had ignored or buried.
When it is time for the bodywork, he doesn't leave the room. He must sense that I am more in my head this time. He offers to give me an undressing ritual.
I don't know what that is, but I am curious so I say yes.
He brings my awareness to my senses, slowing down my thoughts by bringing presence to my body, his touch running down the whole length of my body soothes and grounds me almost instantly. He asks if he can remove my dress.
"Yes I nod"
He tells me to be present with my thoughts, allowing me to see the judgements I hold towards my body. Each layer of clothing that comes off allows me to acknowledge these parts of myself I usually ignore. With him having complete acceptance for my body gives me permission to let go of the judgements and love this body that has birthed 3 children and experienced so much in life.
This time, I decided to be fully naked. It felt vulnerable but right, like I was stepping into a deeper level of trust—not just with Rod but with myself.
Still, my mind wouldn’t stop racing. I kept questioning,
“Am I just here for a sexy man to rub my body?
Or is this really healing?”
I come to the conclusion I am happy for either option.
but the answer, I realized, was both.
At one point during the session, Rod joined me on the table. He sat in front of me, my legs draped over him and he pulled me up to a seated position with him. His arms holding me with my legs around him. I could feel his steady presence, his breath guiding mine, and in that moment, I dropped back into my body. My mind quieted, and with his guidance I could feel the energy moving through me. I can't put words to it. It was like we journeyed somewhere. Where? I don't know
And before I know it, it has already been 3 hours, it feels as though time disappears here. I have to leave quite quickly, I have my kids Christmas concert on.
I texted Rod the next morning:
"The earth shook last night.
I’m a ray of sunshine today.
My body feels alive,
like an energy switch has been flipped.
My pussy is humming,
my whole body is vibrating with this incredible energy.
I can’t get enough."
My husband could feel it too. I expressed myself in a way I never had before—hair pulling, biting on his ear, things I’d held back because I was afraid to do.
He responded in ways that surprised both of us, his masculine energy rising to meet my feminine expression.
It was magnetic, powerful, and healing for both of us.
But this wasn’t just about sex. It was about reclaiming something I didn’t even know I had lost. For years, I had been stuck in my head, talking and thinking but not feeling. Now, I was starting to feel again—deeply, fully, unapologetically.
“I almost signed up for a $5000 marriage counseling program, but this—this is what I needed. Not to talk, but to feel.”
I’m learning to use my voice, to ask for what I want, to release years of suppression and resentment and to express myself in my pleasure. It’s not always easy. Sometimes it feels like I’m purging generations of shame and fear. I have done ayahuasca before and it is a similar feeling of purging and then connection... but in a way that is fucking WAY more enjoyable then vomiting for 8 hours.
This work is medicine. And it’s changing my life in ways I never could have imagined.
In the days that followed once again amazing opportunities are flowing again. It's like everything is turning to gold. My business phone is ringing off the hook and opportunity is at every corner. I think to myself Is this an investment into my business as well... My next session is in 2 weeks and I can not wait for what this one brings.
The Foundations of My Work
When I Think About How I Got Here...
This work has been a thread woven through my entire life, beginning with my earliest childhood memories. It is my life’s work. Over the years, I’ve drawn from a rich tapestry of modalities, including massage, tantra, sensual bodywork and the erotic arts, shadow work, inner child healing, somatic and embodiment practices, love languages, plant medicine, alchemy studies, universal law, energy work, subconscious reprogramming, mystery school teachings, ceremonial and ritual practices, BDSM, martial arts, and the wisdom of countless artists, teachers, shamans, gurus, coaches, and healers.
These elements have shaped what I offer today—a truly unique approach to intimacy, bodywork, and transformation.
So, What Is It That I Do?
For the past six years, I’ve worked with women to help them connect and reframe their relationships to their bodies, desires, beliefs, self-expression, and emotions. Through massage and bodywork, while using intimacy as a tool for self-discovery and conscious connection. Together, we’ve created deeply transformative experiences that have awakened parts of them that they had forgotten... or never even known existed.
The only way for someone to know the pleasure that is available to them is for them to experience it. Removing the armour around their heart, cracking it wide open with love, ecstacy and pleasure that can no longer be ignored
What Does That Even Mean?
We live in a world that prioritizes the mind—logic, control, and achievement—often at the expense of the body and emotions. Many people live in their heads, thinking about their experiences without truly feeling them. This disconnection is a defense mechanism, a way to survive but not thrive.
When we are disconnected from our bodies, we are unable to fully experience the richness of life—the pleasure, joy, and connection that makes it all worthwhile. People spend their lives chasing success, ticking off goals, yet often feel unfulfilled when they reach their version of success. True fulfillment comes from learning how to feel, how to be in your body, and how to savor life in the present moment.
Connecting to the body is the foundation for living a pleasurable life that feels good to live.
Our desires, are deeply tied to our fears. As we move closer to what we truly want, our fears often rise to the surface—old beliefs, doubts, and insecurities that tell us we’re not ready or deserving. This inner conflict creates a push-pull dynamic that keeps us stuck. My work helps clients navigate this space, aligning their beliefs and desires so they can move toward what they want with clarity, confidence, and connection.
Why Intimacy?
Working on my intimacy was one of the major turning points in my life—it changed everything. Intimacy is where everything shows up: our fears, our desires, our insecurities, and our deepest truths. When we master our intimacy, every aspect of our life transforms.
If you can confidently express your sexuality, your wants, and your desires in the bedroom, then asking for a raise at work becomes effortless.
If you can stand naked in front of a mirror or your partner and feel proud of your body, then wearing a bikini at the beach won’t trouble you.
If you can confidently initiate intimacy, then telling your partner where you want to go for dinner or what you truly need in a relationship becomes easy.
Intimacy is the foundation of who we are - It's the act that conceived us and it is the first thing we experience in life. It is a need if we are to live our happiest most successful lives. Everyone wants great intimacy, while many are scared of it and very few know how to create it.
If we don’t master this aspect of ourselves, we become slaves to our desires, often suppressing them or getting them met in unhealthy and destructive ways.
And beyond that—working on intimacy is fun. It’s pleasurable, exciting, and liberating. You get to fully, unapologetically be
you. You get to be seen, you get to be felt, heard, understood, valued... While sharing that with the person that you choose.
what people are saying..
★★★★★
Thank you for our session, I have called in the most divine masculine man into my world and I feel so safe to surrender to him, to soften and to be all of me. Without that session I don't think I would have been ready so thank you, thank you, you are magical
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★★★★★
I've been feeling a million $$$ since and can honestly say that life won't be the same again.
I can already feel the differences in just my internal state and confidence
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